On a relatively warm and sunny day, I went for a stroll around my property. I did not have a particular destination or plan. I was in a place of allowing. A moment arose where I came to a natural pause. I just stood there; I had no thoughts; I was experiencing the moment; I was being. At this moment, I was filled with light; everything became light. Time stood still. I was in a state of pure awareness. All was peace; all was light. For a moment, it felt unbearable. There was nothing for me to hold onto. I was in a state of complete surrender.

Because I have been practicing allowing for a long time, even though the experience felt unbearable, I was able to continue to allow it, to let it be. Tears began to stream down my face as the light penetrated every cell of my being. The book entitled “Embraced by the Light.” A true story of a woman’s near-death experience came to mind. But I was not near death; I was the nearest to life that one can be. The light was embracing me. I was cleansed, healed, unburdened, set free, and loved. The light seemed to have a presence of unconditional love. I could not feel the ground beneath my feet. I felt no weight at all. I felt no boundaries. I felt a cleansing through and through. The light was so bright it exploded from inside out. Words are hard to find to describe the experience; the closest I can come is Amazing Grace. I was so awake; the light was intense and powerful; I could only experience it. In a way, my human sight was not involved at all.

There was a moment when the light was so bright with such high energy that I felt I would merge with it and not return to my normal state of being. I think somewhere within me; I knew I was being given a choice. As if I was having a telepathic conversation with the light, I was asked to decide if my strongest desire was to merge with the light or return and share the light with others. If I chose to connect with the light, I may or may not remember myself upon returning to my normal state. The moment I made my choice, I experienced a gentle release from the love and light that had me in its embrace.

I have no idea what the time frame of this experience was. Maybe it was only minutes, but it also felt like many lifetimes. What I learned about myself, life, and why we are here is more than I can share in a post.

I know now that we choose to come here, we choose to be here, and we choose when we leave…then we choose again… and again…and again, until…

The heavier the burden, the closer our lives come to the earth, the more real and truthful they become. Conversely, the absolute absence of burden causes man to be lighter than air, to soar into heights, take leave of the earth and his earthly being, and become only half real, his movements as free as they are insignificant. What then shall we choose? Weight or lightness?” ~ Milan Kundera, The Unbearable Lightness of Being