I have noticed that I have felt a persistent inner power struggle throughout my life. I have been able to identify this internal power struggle as a pull either towards the physical (earthly, mundane, society, and family of origin conditioning) or interest towards the spiritual (the essence of my soul).
This inner power struggle reached a pinnacle when I began the journey into middle age. In doing a lot of inner work and implementing spiritual disciplines, today, I am reaching a place to discern what this inner power struggle has been about and what I need to do to end the inner power struggle and create inner peace. I see the second half of my life as a process of moving towards oneness by making peace with the inner power struggle and merging the Mundane with the Divine.
Merge: combine, unite, come together, join, become one, Mundane: ordinary, routine, commonplace, monotonous, unexciting, boring, dull, tedious, uninteresting, humdrum, dreary, Divine: heavenly, celestial, godly
By applying the spiritual tools of prayer and meditation towards building a solid foundation of inner peace, I have moved closer to oneness. These spiritual disciplines allow internal space for the acceptance of duality. I have experienced duality as the physical and spiritual being in opposing resistance within myself, feeling like if I choose one, I will lose the other. This is part of the human condition that must be seen and experienced differently within us if we hope ever to manifest an external world that will reflect wholeness and oneness.
This acceptance is not a one-time event but a process. Humans live most of our lives with an inner conflict, in a paradox, a push and pull (power struggle) within the human physical self, which holds a Heavenly soul. To find inner peace and end the power struggle, we must find a way to unite what feels like opposing forces. We can transform the physical into the metaphysical without losing contact with either one. For me, this involves finding ways of merging the Mundane with the Divine, creating a relationship between the two that is so close it becomes one.
“When you know that you are eternal, you can play your true role in time. When you know you are divine, you can become completely human. When you know you are one with God, you are free to become yourself ” ~ Mother Meera